As I stared out the window of this corner diner, complaining about how small my steak was and how my "salad" was just lettuce, I saw approximately 47.625 "cute couples." Then the complaint of "only lettuce" turned into, "Julie's favorite salad consists of only lettuce." I miss her so much. Walking around downtown, by the lake/beach, was not a great idea. Seeing all these couples hand-in-hand was torture! And I'm a GUY! I must really miss her a lot. Being married is sooooo cool, but makes it infinately more difficult to be apart. The thing I might be most afraid of at this point is...how long will it be before I take it for granted again? Up til now, I honestly feel like I've been taking things for granted. Our time together has been affected by my selfishness because I've just rested in the fact that we're married. It's embarrassing to admit this to the world (or the 4 people that read this) but that's how I feel. It's like every other area of my life. I know WHAT to do, I just don't do it. i want to make Julie feel like the most beautiful, smart, important woman in the universe and I think I'm failing. More walks, games, reading together, bike rides (?), talks, pillow fights, trips, flowers...less tv, laying around, bad communication, laziness...I need to be a man and step up to the plate. I need to do more for the right reasons. I need to put her first and act accordingly.

Baby, if you read this, I mean it.

So I'm off to work in a half hour. Just enough time to watch some of our wedding video again and remember how incredible the best day of my life was. To see Julie smile the way she did that day...my wife has the most incredible smile. Plus, she looked super hot. :-) That smile cuts straight to my heart...exactly what I need right now. Jules, you're not the only lonely one. I miss you and am waiting for you.